Healing Is Not A Means To Perfection—My Soft landing was internal, it was My depth & consistency In self-compassion
This morning, I processed quite a lot.
I reviewed some past memories, read through a few emails, received a loving message from a friend, cared for my cats — who trust and love me so deeply — ate nourishing food, and listened to beautiful music. I know life isn’t perfect, and there’s a deep wound within me that has been healing and is still in recovery. Sometimes, I notice myself recoiling from the feeling of connection. I question myself, wondering if I’m doing something wrong just for feeling. I catch myself associating harmless things — like a bump on my skin or a color that feels off — with danger or blame.
But I’m learning. I’m learning that when I meet myself with compassion and keep facing forward — when I choose not to abandon myself in my emotions — these fears and thoughts soften. They are not proof that something is wrong with me. They are evidence that I have endured pain. They are symptoms of trauma, and they deserve my gentleness. This fear has made me question the world around me… It has made me doubt the beauty of life, the warmth of people, the nourishment I’ve created for myself, and even the deep spiritual guidance that surrounds me. But when I stand in my truth — in my quiet presence, without judgment — I can feel what others might miss:
That I am well.
That I am growing.
That I am being shaped by something greater, something loving.
I am releasing what life calls me to release.
I am opening, slowly and bravely, to relationships and experiences that reflect genuine love — even when it feels unfamiliar.
I am grateful. Truly.
And I know the universe knows me, deeply and entirely. I know I walk with it — as a best friend, as a law of love, as a guide into beauty.
Thank you, Self, for noticing all that is well.
Thank you for loving as best you know how.
Thank you for honoring your desires and walking toward the life you dream of.
It’s never been about right or wrong — it’s always been about honoring love, choosing joy, and being present with the life I’ve been given, every single day.
I have big dreams — for myself, and for my family. And I’m grateful that I’ve made it this far.
I’m opening up again. I may stumble. I may make mistakes. But I remember now: it’s not about perfection.
It’s about choosing what honors love and enriches my life.
I love you.
May you be blessed in all your ways, and may kindness and love walk with you, always.
My Reminder
What you have gone through is tremendous, and you don’t need anyone to validate it. Source has been with you throughout your entire experience and is guiding you through your life — never feel alone.
It is an illusion that you are in any harm, that your wellbeing is jeopardized, or that anyone is more powerful than you. Trust that the anxiety and paranoia you’re feeling are direct responses to the desperate, manipulative energy of those who feel powerless. It’s okay to call it what it is — and to empower yourself, to free yourself more and more from their reality. It is not yours to live.
You are within your own realm of love and beauty. And the more you release their irresponsible behavior and actions, the more fully you hold yourself.
Simply be in your life. And if it feels like life is overwhelming, know that it’s a lie. Life loves you more than anyone could ever measure.
Have a restful, secure, assured rest of your life. You are loved.
My Forgiveness
Thank you for forgiving yourself — For forgiving the part of you that chose to love human beings who felt wrong for you, but you hoped that maybe things were different. Thank you for forgiving yourself for trying. Thank you for forgiving yourself for feeling like you made mistakes, when you were simply learning and understanding people — and how to live your life.
But most importantly, thank you for never forgetting who you are. Even in the darkest times in your life, you chose love — as love itself. Thank you for buying yourself two cakes today. Even though, by the world’s standards, it may seem like an illogical choice — love isn’t logical. Love is true. The truth is, you are holding yourself so closely, knowing that you are making really meaningful and challenging decisions every day. You know you need to give yourself the gifts that no one else is giving you right now. You know that the success of your life is rooted in how deeply you can love the truth of who you are.
Thank you for knowing — and having compassion today — towards the feeling that choosing love for yourself can be messy. Thank you for being fierce about your boundaries and for showing yourself freely, online and in life. Most powerfully, thank you for walking away from the energy that shamed you, and continuing to walk toward a vision of the beautiful life ahead. Thank you for seeing Canada as your home. Thank you for knowing that the energy that doesn’t work for you has no place in your home. Thank you for not allowing them to stop you from receiving the abundance of the life you’ve already been given.
Thank you for braving your project. Thank you for believing that being the healthy and true you is what will ensure you live the life meant for you. Thank you for not wanting men in your life. Thank you for really listening to your body — and being brave about what you genuinely want to experience in this world: empowered finances and enriching sanctuaries in all that you do. Thank you for claiming. Your beauty is a gift — and it’s yours. No one else’s.
Thank you for loving yourself so much. Thank you for continuing the work.
My Gratitude
I’m so grateful for today; a safe and clear day, a home to live in, I was able to feed my kitties, drink coffee, eat good food, clean myself, stretch, pray, and work! My cats are so healthy and they’re happy too — they’re so ready to play around the house, and I can feel this clearly. I’m also feeling driven to get my work off the ground and talk more about what I love. I feel so ready to receive all the financial abundance that’s meant for me.
I can see myself attracting the income ahead, and it’s really fun creating my own systems. I’m grateful that I can look at the challenges I feel — inside and outside of me — through a lens of compassion, and shift my perspective using the tools and guidance I’ve received these past weeks. I’m grateful that I have room to grow! That I can see there are more levels to my success and expansion. I’m grateful that I can tell when my experiences are not about me — and when my energy is exalted and celebrated. I’m so grateful that I show up for myself more and more each day, with less and less expectation for others to accept my work. I am accepting my work and being my full, authentic self. I’m grateful that I choose the most beautiful aspects of my life. I’m so grateful I chose to move and give myself the quality life that I deserve. I’m grateful to see where I’m not valued — it only amplifies all the ways I can be valued, and creates a powerful void for new people and experiences to come in and enrich the life I live.
I’m happy to know that I am well, despite the uncertainties. I’m grateful that I get to become more certain about who I am in the process.
Tonight, I am grateful — and I set up my sleep space with the knowing that, regardless of what I perceive as “reality” in this moment, there is boundless and limitless possibility for all of it to become the true, aligned actualization of all that I genuinely love and care for.
My Boundaries
I’m grateful to myself today — and to the lovingly abundant guidance I receive — that encourage me to stand and speak my truth. It was a new feeling: to feel less afraid, less ashamed, and more empowered and safe to be stern, to express my disdain or refusal, and to say with honesty… I’m proud of myself.
For so many years, I’ve been subconsciously afraid to feel pride in myself. I held a belief system that spoke of pride as a negative energy — something that breeds ill will — or at least, that’s how I interpreted it. There were scales of justification I read, teachings that guided me toward sacred healing and truth, but often made me fearful of fully owning my strength. Now, I realize that I’m allowed to view those truths as valid without invalidating my own truth. For me, pride doesn’t carry ego — it carries gentle love. It stands up for itself. It stands up for love. It stands up for life. Pride celebrates the strength to trust oneself. And I now see how empowering that can be — especially for those of us whose self-sovereignty was once fearfully removed.
I’m grateful to you, Self — for seeing the truth in every situation and empowering the wholeness of your being. You know now that you will never be “okay” or “well” to others by their definitions — and that’s okay. What matters is that you are aligned within your own wellbeing: with the world, the universe, God, your soul, and the wholeness of your Source. You can name your truth and allow the experience of life to nourish your wellbeing — or secure it through clarification and loving-kindness. Thank you for continuing to release what is not yours to process, heal, carry, figure out, or fix. You can say to yourself:
“I am not here to help everyone. I am here to help myself and share my gifts with those who value the love that I am.”
I honour who I am and who I am becoming, with deep reverence for the empowerment and energy that hold and enrich my life.
I love you. Be in your truth. Be in your empowerment. Love yourself fully. Know that true love is, and always will be, TRUE LOVE.
I always have — and forever more will — love you.
Always. Forever more.
